Back to Habits

Bismillahirahmannirahim,

I am back to habit. Starting reading a book, when suddenly my husband noticed that i am too much busy for houseworks.

So he gave me a money to buy a book. Well, i am interested with Hlovate, but it is kind rare to get his or her books, so i changed to RodieR, and Noor Suraya. Such a wonderful authors! 

I wish i can be one of them. Amin.

Okbai. 

Ubat hati yang layu


Apabila terasa diri semakin LESU dan MALAS melakukan ketaataan & ibadah kepada Allah. Ketahuilah, itulah tanda sebuah PERMULAAN kepada MAKSIAT dan DOSA.

Jika terus dilayan, akan HILANG sensitiviti kepada dosa yang mampu membawa rasa kesal dan insaf, akhirnya amat sukarlah bertaubat, sukar juga untuk insaf dan benci mendengar nasihat. Na'uzubillah min zalik

-Muhasabah Diri-

#DrZaharuddinAbdRahman

Hati yang terluka


Bismillahhirohmannirrohim,

Hai,blog! Dah lama tak menulis. Makin lupa diri, bila dah balik Malaysia,tanggungjawab banyak sangat. Terabai semuanya.

Tak berniat nak menjadikan blog ini bersarang, saya cuba post setiap waktu walau tiada siapa baca. Oh yeah, menulis terapi jiwa!!

Hati sebenarnya terluka lagi, sebab kita melakukan segalanya demi tanggungjawab. Tapi,hati ini lumrahnya berbolak balik, kejap ikhlas,kejap bosan, kejap malas. Ya,iman itukan turun naik juga, tapi xpernah mengalah, cuba jugak teruskan walau hati rasa terpaksa.

Tapi aku mengaku, kita memang kena paksa hati benda yang kita tak suka kepada suka. Ibadah juga begitu, kita buat walaupun tak suka,namun lama lama jadi terbiasa, dan ikhlas.

Jujur,aku menulis sebagai terapi hati. Hati aku sakit,mungkin aku perlu muhasabah. Apa yang tak cukup,apa yang kurang? Tatkala ini terkenang rakan di Mesir, Siti Athirah. Dia selalu ad bila aku ada masalah hti. Sekarang? Payah nak hubungi dia, aku kutub utara, dia pulak di kutub selatan. Waktu jauh berbeza, dan aku pasti dia ada juga masalah sendiri. Tak mahu bebankan sesapa. I miss u athirah. Ok sedihh.

I am feeling down..down downn..

Okbai.


Blame on you!!!!

It is hard when what you are already deserved to do something but the thing doesnt go as planned. And the worst part is, i have to take all the blame. Why me???

You are the one who supposed to take all the reponsibilities but why i am caught by you? Why i am the black sheep? Why?

I am pained. Very tired.very lazy. I am stupid for knowing u. I am getting tired and exhausted. Is it it is the test for me from Allah. But why i am so frustrated? Why me? Why? 

I am questioned myself as i am not religious. Shame on me. Shameless. 

I am weak. Yet, i have to gained my strength, but i am dissappointed. I am veryy downn..downn to earth. May Allah help me. I am feeling like i want to change everything but the lame feeling coming again and as trying to tell me, you cannot changed. You are already evil..there is no turning point. NO!!!

But in my deep heart, i want to change. I have to change. I want to become successful so as no one can looks down on me.

Ramdhan dibumi Musa

Ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan!

Alhamdulilah, sepanjang lima tahun di perantauan,inilah kali pertama berasa berpuasa di Mesir. Pengalaman yang tidak boleh dibeli dengan wang ringgit. Betapa,aku sangat menghargai setiap detik waktu dan cebisan pengalaman. Akanku kutip selagi terdaya dan mampu.

Berpuasa di Mesir, sangatlah berbeza kerana seiring dengan erti pengertian puasa, menahan diri daripada melakukan sesuatu yang membatalkan puasa.

Puasa ramdhan di mesir, sangatlah panjang, lebih kurang 15jam. Dan berlaku pada musim panas, ohhoiii rasa memang nak balik Malaysia..sahur jam 2 sengah pagi dan berbuka puasa jam tujuh malam. Dengan siang yang panjang, panas yang terik, kalau duduk dalam rumah pun tak tertahan panas. Ohhoi, apatah lagi panas di akhirat kelak. YaAllah tuntunilah kami kejalanMu..jadikanlah kami orang yang bersyukur. Amin.

Kat sini, lepas asar, semua kedai tutup. Semua pekerjaan tamat seawal dua petang. Memang orang arab sangat memuliakan bulan ramdhan. Di mana mana,ucapan agung ramdhan kareem di lontarkan.menujukkan betapa mereka bahgia dengan kedatangan ramdhan ini.

Berbeza di Malysia, ramdhan meriah dengan bazar, bazar siang, bazar malam, makanan yang melimpah ruah, di kedai kedai di buka dari jam asar sehingga ke waktu sahur. Meski, aku juga antara peminat bazar, namun di bumi Musa ini, tetap terbaik. Mereka jadi murah hati, sedekah makanan, alquran dan macam macam lagi. Ohh indahnya,akhlak islam.

Dan untuk hari pertama ramdhan je dah kena pergi Mohandisin, memang mencabar tenaga. Okbai..nak terawih.

Distress stress disorder~

Yeah..wahai feqh lughah..please be nice to me..please..i am begging you..i am having a distress heavy sindrom stress..huwaaa..and it is so much trouble for me..

Staying in front of the book for hours but not every single words go throuh to my head..ohh fiqh lughah please be nice to me..please...

The exam is just around the corner..and i hope this year i will pass with flying colours..ohh Allah..please help me..why the swinging mood come againn..whyyy???

To you, having u a blessing for me..but i dont know what is the problem..u make it hard for me..i will proof to you, i am the best among the best! I will not give up and keep struggling and fighting and reading..ohh yeahhh..

Ok bye.

Swinging mood.


It's a hard thing when u supposed to study but your heart dont do the same what your mind thinking.

All your mood is swinging, when opened the book, all your thought flew to somewhere else. Tomorrow is exam, how could you supposed to relax?

This is final year, your last chances to move forward.  If u are lazy, so how do you want to do to face the reality? What u are supposed to say to your husband, mother. Please, my spirits..comeee to meee..come to mama, please..

I will let go all the clinging feeling..reading al quran and start to revision nowww...

May Allah bless me tomorow..i wish i will do my best, tomorrow..aminnnn..
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